Sorry haven't posted much this week. Been feeling really glum this week. My mum's health is deteriorating, and I worry about her so much. She is my best friend, and I love her to bits, but
since Dad died 4 years ago she has been gradually going down hill. She is only 65, but more like 85, her legs are so bad, she walks with a stick, has a poorly heart, and for the last 4-5 weeks has been suffering with a very bad shoulder. She had an x-ray a week ago and is awaiting the results. She lives alone in a one bedroom bungalow, having no-one to talk to for about 20/24 hours a day, and I feel so sorry for her. She has no existence really. Often sits in the same chair in the kitchen, just watching the clock tick by. I try and do so much for her, but are limited because I have to work and have a family and house to look after too. My brothers are a complete waste of space, they either don't notice what needs to be done, or would just rather I get on with it. Im too angry with them to speak to them about it. My sister is one selfish b*tch who only every worries about herself. Not one of them help mum. I just wish I could do so much more for her.... it has all reduced me to tears this week, and somehow haven't felt like coming on here much.... sorry.
As for ww, everythings going according to plan I think. Well still focused although my emotions are all over the place. Have my monthly due any minute also, so thats not helping, but on the whole, still have control over what Im eating . Almost gave in to a kit-kat today which I haven't had since I started ww, I don't even know why I wanted it really....stress, depression, hormones.....but I was strong enough to shut the cupboard and walk away which Im pleased about.
I do hope your all having a happier week than me. Although I havent been in the frame of mind to write about how I'm feeling, I have still been logging on to read your lovely blogs. I do love reading about your adventures, ups and downs, and it's lovely to know your all there so that when I do feel the need to off-load my thoughts..... obviously right now..... then I can rely on you guys just to hear me out, and I thank you for that x
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