Saturday, 29 August 2009

sad news...

A very dear man called Reg that I used to know died last night. He was 81. He used to be my father-in-law. I was married to his son for 13 years, but with him for 17 years, so I knew Reg very well..... , a truly wonderful, lovely man.
Im upset for my girls. Two are away for the weekend, thankfully, but the eldest Kirsty was with her Grandad when he died. She is a very brave, caring girl, who at the tender age of 18 excelled herself last night, and I am so proud of her. She is training to be a nurse at our local hospital, but to be able to deal with the death of a loved one, goes far beyond the emotions of caring for patients.
This has hit me harder than I expected. When I split with my ex, nearly 7 years ago, it was bitter and nasty, and I also fell out with one of his brothers, and since then I have never had the chance to go to see my ex father in law, but before all that we were very close, and I spent a lot of time with him. The rest of the family talk to me and now things are better with the ex and we can talk, and I have text him today to say if there is anything I can do , then just ask. But I just feel so sad that I never had chance to say goodbye to this lovely man.
The funeral will inevitably be in a week or so's time, I would love to go and pay my respects, but really don't want to upset anyone by being there...... its so hard.

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Friday, 28 August 2009

Weigh in day......

Weigh in day today folks and YAY !! Another 2 lb bites the dust !! Im now 12 st 7 lb !! Now setting my next mini target as 11 st 13 lb....just another 8 more pounds til I'm in the 11's...whoop, whoop !! If someone had told me at the beginning of last year that I would be feeling as good as this now in a size 14 jeans and 89 pounds lighter since January '08, I would not have believed them. Why oh why have I spent most of my life being overweight and feeling disgusted with myself, when really its only common sense, and a healthy way of life..... never again will I allow myself to go back to where I came from...... :O)))) xx

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Wednesday, 26 August 2009

My girls.....

Just want to introduce you to my 3 beautiful girls..... they are 3 of the reasons why I want to be healthy...... from left to right... Shannon (10), Kirsty (18), and Sophie (13).... all beautiful if I do say so myself... love them to bits and I want to be around long enough to see some equally beautiful grandchildren...... x

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cant sleep.... lol...

Well you have to laugh really. Got up for a pee (sorry) at 3.46 am and I'm still awake now at 6.10 am. I tried going back to sleep but couldn't get comfortable. I lay there and I started thinking about my bones lol..!! Yes I said my bones !! The bones that I didn't know I had for at least the last 7 years !! And I just couldn't get comfortable because of them !! Weird NSV me .

God help me if I do lose another couple of stone, I will never sleep !!

And of course laying there, what stupid song kept going round and round in my head..... dem bones, dem bones, dem dry bones ..... lol ...... time to get up I think !!
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Tuesday, 25 August 2009

My lovely blog award :O)...

With all the goings on lately with mum, I completely forgot to mention my lovely blog award sent to me by What a lovely idea. Thank you so much.

The rules are to pass this lovely award on to 15 other bloggers and to acknowledge the sender of yours.... how on earth do I just choose 15 ? Your all wonderful. I would pass it on to all of you, honest, but for now the 15 are as follows...
















Now that was difficult !!!!!!!

Enjoy your reward....your blogs are all fab x

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Monday, 24 August 2009

Life in general ....

Its been a quiet few days with the children away, but they are back now with their suitcase filled with dirty washing that needs to be cleaned and ironed before next weekend when they go away again for 4 days...... lucky them !! I'm glad they are getting a few days away as we simply can't afford a holiday this year, so at least the ex is doing his good deed for the year. Just wish he would do all the pre-holiday clothes washing, ironing, packing, un-packing and re-washing and ironing. He just gets all the fun side of things, but hey... thats life !! So badly wish I could go on holiday though, really missed not having one this year :(
Took mum to the doctors again this morning. He wants her to try some patches to ease the discomfort she is in with the osteo arthritus, but she is very reluctant to try them. Needs a bit of a push there I think.
Diet wise things are going according to plan. Doesn't look like I have lost anything yet, but still got until Friday to swing it...will just have to wait and see...but being very good with food, water and walking so think I deserve a little pound or 2 would be very nice !!
Can't believe how quick the school holidays are going. The girls were not impressed when I mentioned they only have another 9 days off .... eeeeekkkkk , shock , horror across their faces !! We have the lovely little job of sorting out the rest of the uniform shopping tomorrow, that should be fun (not), so probably lose a few pounds with the stress of that !!
Have been out blackberry picking again this afternoon with my youngest Shannon (10). Its good quality time for the pair of us without the other 2 around who are so grown up now (nearly 14 and 18), who don't really like doing stuff with mum, unless its clothes shopping for them !!!
Got a bit of a headache at the moment so going to sign off now.... will be back soon no doubt to update you all on my little adventures .. so ttfn...xx

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Friday, 21 August 2009

weigh in day.... and thank you x

Hi peep's,

Weigh in today and I gained a pound. So back to 12st 9 lbs. Thats ok, got my totm aswell this morning, so Im blaming that. Hopefully a good loss waiting for me for next week.....

How's everyone doing ? Hope your all ok. Want to thank you all for your lovely comments on my last post. You are a lovely bunch, and your comments were very much appreciated when I was feeling down. You all helped a great deal so big (((hugs))) to you all x

My girls have gone on a camping weekend with their dad, so peace and quiet here. They went at lunchtime today and will be back Sunday evening. I hope the weather holds out for them. I think its supposed to, but you never can be too sure !!

Did my errands this morning and then met up with Karon from for lunch which was lovely. We met at weatherspoons, and both had breaded plaice , chips, peas, a round of bread and butter and a mug of tea for an astonishing £3.20 !! What a bargain !! We both ate everything apart from the bread, and the meal only came to 8.5 pts, which I think was brill as we were both full. We drank diet coke aswell, so in all a successful ww friendly meal. Good choice !!

It was lovely to see Karon again. Looking forward to next time. We had a good chat and laugh, and I learnt a lot about Karon's bonus points ;O) that she has achieved this week .... say no more !! Must say , you have helped to cheer me up no end Karon, so thank you x

So in all, although I have gained this week, and had a bit of stress worrying about my lovely mum, I'm still feeling positive, and looking forward to a good weight loss next week.

Take care guys, be good, and if you can't be good, be careful ;O) ..... have a lovely weekend x

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Wednesday, 19 August 2009

Feeling glum this week.....

Hi guys.....

Sorry haven't posted much this week. Been feeling really glum this week. My mum's health is deteriorating, and I worry about her so much. She is my best friend, and I love her to bits, but
since Dad died 4 years ago she has been gradually going down hill. She is only 65, but more like 85, her legs are so bad, she walks with a stick, has a poorly heart, and for the last 4-5 weeks has been suffering with a very bad shoulder. She had an x-ray a week ago and is awaiting the results. She lives alone in a one bedroom bungalow, having no-one to talk to for about 20/24 hours a day, and I feel so sorry for her. She has no existence really. Often sits in the same chair in the kitchen, just watching the clock tick by. I try and do so much for her, but are limited because I have to work and have a family and house to look after too. My brothers are a complete waste of space, they either don't notice what needs to be done, or would just rather I get on with it. Im too angry with them to speak to them about it. My sister is one selfish b*tch who only every worries about herself. Not one of them help mum. I just wish I could do so much more for her.... it has all reduced me to tears this week, and somehow haven't felt like coming on here much.... sorry.
As for ww, everythings going according to plan I think. Well still focused although my emotions are all over the place. Have my monthly due any minute also, so thats not helping, but on the whole, still have control over what Im eating . Almost gave in to a kit-kat today which I haven't had since I started ww, I don't even know why I wanted it really....stress, depression, hormones.....but I was strong enough to shut the cupboard and walk away which Im pleased about.
I do hope your all having a happier week than me. Although I havent been in the frame of mind to write about how I'm feeling, I have still been logging on to read your lovely blogs. I do love reading about your adventures, ups and downs, and it's lovely to know your all there so that when I do feel the need to off-load my thoughts..... obviously right now..... then I can rely on you guys just to hear me out, and I thank you for that x

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Sunday, 16 August 2009

Blackberries, Bootsales, and BBQ's......

Have had a lovely day today.... warm sunshine helps !

Firstly visited a car boot sale about ten minutes away. Got a few things for my daughter, and I got a couple of bargains myself.... A lovely top from Next for an amazing 10p size 14 !!! And 3 lovely handbags.... heres a piccy for you to have a nosey.

Then we came back, and we went blackberry picking......yummmmm. Trouble is I don't know what to do with them !! Im not a brill cook, so any advice would be, ..... I have a bowl of of blackberries with no idea what to do with them !!!

And finally decided its such a lovely evening going to do a bbq for dinner. I may have a sausage a burger and some salad.... looking forward to it. Going to light it up now.

Enjoy the rest of your evenings everyone...... its beautiful when the sun shines........... :O)

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Friday, 14 August 2009

Oh yes !!!!!!!!!!!!! .....

Whoop whoop 4 lbs off !!!! To say I'm gobsmacked, surprised, shocked and speechless is an understatement !! Im more surprised than a surprised thing !!!...... I've only gone and lost a whopping 4 lbs !!!!! I said 4 lbs !!!!..My SP's were right !!! If you have been following me for a while you will know I never lose 4 lbs in one go !! Its always a pound at a time, 2 if Im lucky, but lately I've had a run of sts's.... but today.... a beautiful 4 lbs !! To say I'm over the moon is putting it mildly :O))))

I went back to basics, upped the exercise..... walking, drinking more water, aqua aerobics ..talking of which Im meeting Karon for another session of aqua aerobics at 12 today..looking forward to that... and it all seems to have done the trick. I am going to bottle up this feeling I have today, and if I lose the plot, or get stuck again, I'm going to remember what I've done to get this..... oh what a feeling to be in control ....... gives me much more satisfaction than any food could.... oh yea, oh yea, *does a little dance round the room*......

And to top it off.... Ive now lost 75 lbs since September when I joined ww, and 88 lbs since beginning of last year............ I feel good :O) ..... 12st 8 lb !!!!
I feel good by James Brown just for you Karon xxxxxxx
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Wednesday, 12 August 2009

Oh what a beautiful morning..... oh what a beautiful day.....

Im so excited, that I just can't hide it..... la la la .....

SP this morning.... 12st 8lb....its telling me Ive lost 4 lb !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really ??? Can this be right ???!! 2 more days to weigh in.... oh how I wish it was weigh day today ........

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Monday, 10 August 2009

NSV :O))))))....

I really can't believe this !! Massive NSV for me. I washed the top that I went out in on Friday night and when I was ironing it last night, the label said SIZE 12 !!!!

I'm sure it must be a fluke, probably an oversized 12, but my god I was over the blooming moon :O))))) x

I had given it to my eldest daughter about 5 years ago when I had gained all the weight that I had lost the first time round with ww, and she loaned it to me to go out in !!!! Happy, happy :O))))))) x
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Saturday, 8 August 2009


Well I'm finally getting over my hangover from hell, although I can still smell Fosters on my breath, yes I said Fosters.... I don't even like Fosters !!....and ended up drinking 4 pints of it last night, on top of 3 vodkas's and diet cokes..... Why oh why did I drink Fosters? Well I really don't know what all that was about !! Had a brill night though, well what I can remember of it .. lol :). Went to see an Irish band at The Woolpack pub in Fornham, and they were very good. Went with Maggie the landlady from my local, and another 4 women I had never met before, but we all got on like a house on fire so yes, a brill night and I look forward to the next one.... although I won't be drinking Fosters !!!

However, having gone over points by 20, I didn't expect too much from my usual morning sp..... but my god was gobsmacked to see I had lost another 2 pounds !! I jumped on twice to double check what it said and both times it said 12st 10 pounds !!!!Oh god I wish it was weigh day !!! I however, have been doing this journey long enough now to know that this could still come back and bite me on the bum, so although I savoured every minute of that 12st 10 pounds.... I know
that this could well change again by Friday ..... so Im not going to get too excited yet x

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Friday, 7 August 2009

Weigh in result... and OMG water aerobics !!!!!

YYYIIIIPPPPEEEEE............ I lost a pound.... 1 little pound (*shouts from rooftops*) !!! Im so happy. Its finally dropped again. YES !!! Can you tell I'm happy? lol .... I'm now 12st 12 pounds :OD ... thank god for that !! I really think I deserve that. Had been the same since 17th July and it was beginning to pee me off to put it mildly !! Have upped the exercise this week ...... (much more than anticipated after last night.. lol ) , and have been brill with the food and water. So yes, Im happy with that. Would it be too much to ask for another loss next week ....please, pretty please :)........

Well what can I say about last night !!! PMSL !! water aerobics with Karon ....!! :OD

To say it was a lot more than I expected is putting it mildly !! That leader had us running across the swimming pool (yes I said running in water... difficult huh?), swimming as fast as we could across the pool at least 20 times, jumping up and down, twisting and turning, waving our arms around in front of us, behind us and to the side, then the blooming floor of the pool got lowered so we were treading water for ages, killer on the legs, and then as if that weren't enough , the real fun begins ........... WOGGLES .. 2 of them !!! We had to hold them in each hand and push them into the water, up , down, up , down, side to side, back to front, my god !!! And when she said put them under each foot .... PMSL ... I thought are you being serious !!! lol .... at one stage I got the first one under my first foot, went to try and do the other one, the first one loosened itself from under my foot and I found myself floating on top of the water with the first woggle almost around my neck !!! What a laugh !! Don't think I have laughed so much in ages !! I eventually got the hang of it and we then had to do leg exercises with these woggles under our feet at the bottom of the pool ..... whoever thought this up was on dry land and had never tried it themselves !!! But what a laugh ! I certainly feel it has done me some good..... Im aching across the shoulders this morning and around my hips and thighs.

I definately will go again. Thank you so much for asking me Karon. What a giggle ..... haven't laughed so much in a long time .... x

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Thursday, 6 August 2009

Water aerobics tonight ......

Really looking forward to tonight. Going for the first time to water aerobics in Newmarket with Karon..... should be a giggle !! Hopefully this will help towards even a small loss tomorrow.... fingers crossed !!
Karon is doing really well with all her exercise at the moment, so I'm taking a leaf out of her book. Take a look at Karons blog. She gave mine a lovely plug yesterday, so Im returning the compliment . You can find her at . Its brill.
So see you tonight Karon, and bye for now you lovely bloggers..... I will be back in the morning with the dreaded weigh in result ..........eeeekkkkk x

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Wednesday, 5 August 2009

10 reasons to be happy ... I will not give in

Ok Ive been a bit down lately, so I'm going to push my way through this plateau with positive thinking now. I'm going to focus now on all the good things about having lost 6 stone in the last 18 months.....

1) Im much happier. I was always depressed and dreaded going anywhere before. Now I cant wait to get out !! :O)

2) I can walk, and run up stairs without getting out of breath :O)

3) I'm now wearing size 14 jeans as opposed to size 22. It feels good to walk down the street in fashionable clothes and look ok .... :O)

4) I can shop in New Look and all the other lovely fashionable high street shops :O)

5) So many people commenting on my weight loss and it makes me feel fab :O)

6) Ive met so many lovely people through blogging and ww 5+ board :O)

7) I took part in my first ever race for life this year :O)

8) I am much healthier than before. I enjoy eating healthy food and dont have greasy hair or spots anymore :O)

9) I can now go swimming with my girls and not be so embarrassed about how I look :O)

10)Hubby complains about my boney elbows digging him while asleep..... I never used to know where my bones were !! Now I have collar bones, hip bones, proper knees and elbows... :O)

All these reasons to be happy .... so many reasons to not give in and just keep pushing past my plateau... x

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:O( ....

I really dont know whats happening to my weight. I think I have hit the hardest bit of this journey so far.....
After my few weeks of sts, I decided to start exercising. Yes I did the exercise yesterday as promised. I also went for a 45 minute walk. I did the swimming with my girls ...... and an sp this morning says ......... I gain a pound :O(
Unofficial until Friday, but for heavens sake.... what is a girl to do ........ :O((((
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Tuesday, 4 August 2009

Back to basics .......

RIGHT !!!!!

I have just had another sp , yes, yes, I know ...... la la la ..... and the blooming thing is still stuck at bl@@dy 12st 13lb ....ggggggggrrrrrrrrr !!!!!! I have been 12st 13lb now for the last 3 official weigh ins and if I'm 12st 13lb again on Fridays weigh in, Im seriously not going to be impressed !!!
The reason I sp is not because I'm obsessive, I dont think, just a case of I need to know whats going on so I can act on it ..... and it sure has made me act !! I'm all fired up now ready to fight this blooming bulge even if it kills me.... although I hope it doesn't !! So what can I do to shake things up ????!!!!

1) I know for a fact that food wise, I am usually sooooooooooo good. Yes ok I underestimated the blooming pizza session on the weekend, and went over points, but that was once in a blue moon that we have that, so not likely to happen again this side of christmas I doubt, and I am in the middle of clawing the extra points back as we speak........

2) I also know that Im really good with my water intake...... so no problem there.......

3) I track every morsel I eat, so that can't be the problem.......

I think I know where this is leading .......

4) EXERCISE ??????? What exercise ????? Right ok, so I'm going to have to start exercising if I'm to see the blooming scales go down again..... !! I was so good a few months ago. Power walking, swimming, and exercising on the wii.....and I have just let it all slide. Right, Im going to make a start right now. I'm going to go get dressed. Walk the dog before the kids get up. Then I'm going to take the kids swimming. They are not little so don't need constant watching, and I intend to do at least 30 lengths while I'm there. Then after this I'm going to do a workout at home...... I can do this and I will do this..... NOW !!!
Assuming I don't kill myself in the process.......... I'll be back !! :O) xx

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Sunday, 2 August 2009

Im Shocked !! So much for healthy choices !!!

Hi everyone. Hope your having a great weekend. Today I got up early and decided to make the most of the sun !! We went to Kennett car boot sale which is about 10 minutes drive away from us. Lots of stalls there, but didnt buy anything. There wasnt really anything that I needed or wanted so went to mums for a cuppa. While we were there we helped her sort a cupboard out in her bedroom that she has wanted done for a while. It was getting towards lunchtime when we had finished so she suggested getting dominoes for our lunch/dinner. Well I cant remember the last time hubby and I had dominoes..... it must be getting on for a year I think !! His eyes lit up and of course the thought of it filled me with excitement and dread at the same time !! Mum ordered herself a full house large pizza. Hubby ordered a mighty meaty large pizza and some wedges......... and after very careful studying of the menu..... I ordered chicken strippers and wedges !!

I am honestly in shock now !!!!! So much for healthy choices !!!

At first I thought to myself how good I was. I was proud of my healthy choices. Although I love Dominoes pizza, and used to be able to polish off a large full house one to myself, I knew in the back of my mind that the large pizzas were 4 points per slice !!!!!!!! With that thought in my mind I proceeded to order the chicken strippers with wedges.....thinking this was the healthiest choice for me..... UNTIL ..... I now come home and check the points !!!!!!!! I have just consumed the staggering total of 27 blooming points !!!!! the wedges were 6 points !!! 6 bloody points !!! How can that be ? I ended up eating hubbys wedges not knowing how many points were in them because he was so stuffed with yummy pizza !!! So thats 2 lots of what I thought were healthy wedges = 12 POINTS !!! Could of had 3 bits of pizza for that !!!AND I then find that the chicken strippers were 8 POINTS !!!! plus the dips I had took me to a staggering 27 blooming points !!!
Im in shock !! I could of had 3 lovely bits of large pizza and some bloody wedges and it still would have been less points than what I've had :O( ......... so much for thinking I chose wisely !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! P*$$ed off now !!

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