Sunday, 4 October 2009

Depression, nervous breakdown ?......

Im going to the doctors tomorrow. Just dont seem to be able to cope with things at the moment. Feeling really down, tearful, falling out with everyone because of drinking too much. Can't sleep properly...... Im turning into something I dont want to be.....
Ive upset my beautiful girls, and I have had a major falling out with my brother (blurted out a few home truths when drunk that he didn't like) such as he does not lift one finger to help my mum. He told me I was out of order... OUT OF ORDER !! What a fucking cheek!! My mum is angry with me for having a go at him. Its all gone wrong because I got drunk..... Im not apologising to my brother though, he has had this coming for a long time, problem is when Im sober, I never have the courage to say I need help. But now its all come out in a bad way...... and Im so fed up......


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9 comments:

  1. I'm sorry your going through a bad time...I hope the doctor can help you...sounds like you might have a little bit of depression and there are things they can give you to help with that. I take some medication for anxiety and it helps alot....good luck to you:)

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  2. Great big heeee-uge *hugs*

    Good for you for standing up and asking for help.

    *hugs again*

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  3. thats why they call alcohol, truth potion hey!

    i dont drink very often at all, as i am the same way. see what the dr says, xxx

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  4. thank you ladies. You are so lovely on here. Doctors appointment is at 4 o clock today. Hope I come out of there feeling better than I do now.
    Thank you so much again x

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  5. I hope your visit to the doctor has gone ok, and helped you step on the road to feeling better. Stress or depression it could be, with those symptoms. I've been through it myself, so you have my sympathy. In time you will get through it, I promise.

    In the meantime, look after yourself. Try your best to cut back on the drinking - for me the amount I was drinking (far too much ) was a big contributor to the sleep problems. Plus, you end up worrying about the drinking itself and adding to your stress levels that way.

    Vent when you need to. We're here to listen, even when we can't offer much practical help.

    Take care,
    Jxx

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  6. Awww, (((hugs)))

    I have suffered depression many times over the years and I must say anti-depressants have saved my LIFE (and probably thos around me,lol).

    I hope your appointment went well and that you get the help you need.

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  7. honey!!!

    biigggg hugggsssssssss

    so sorry your going through a shitty time we have all been there with the drink and the words!!!! but like u said ur brother deserved it, my mum is the same my younger bro is an angel in her eyes he cant do no wrong and no one is allowed to bad mouth him wchich fucks me off!! i bet u feel slighty better though as that must have been building up so much inside!!!
    really hope the docs help and i,m sure it will all calm down in a week or so

    xxx

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  8. I just want to say a HUGE thank you to you lovely people. Its so nice of you to take the time to let me know Im not alone. Thank you all. When Im feeling a bit brighter, I will do a new post to let you all know how things are going. Once again, thank you (((hugs))) to you all x

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  9. Just seen this and hope things get better for you. Your brother is probably in denial and doesn't think he is doing anything wrong, but maybe this will plant a seed in his head and make him think a bit more in future.

    Take care and look after number one!

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